So I am checking in with my naturopath as a little extra support for my surgery/preventative future care. I had a really good appointment last week. She is part therapist part healer. We talked a bit about my fears and some interesting things came up.
1. I was not really accepting that everything would be OK even though countless people said I would be. I had/have this fear that the cancer will come back and somehow be untreatable (even though I have one of the most common and treatable types). I also have a fear of not being able to wake up from anesthesia because I have a harder time coming out of it. Basically, I need to let go of those fears and know that I will be OK. Both fears are unfounded. It’s possible that the cancer will come back, but it is still treatable and will not shorten my life, I’ll just have to go through surgery again!
2. I need to let myself move through the process more fluidly, not skip over the hard parts because they are difficult. Acceptance. Letting go. Paying attention to my body. Getting my emotions out (on paper or otherwise).
3. I got some good pre and post operative stuff to help me heal faster that I will check with my surgeon about. They should not interfere at all with conventional treatment.
She gave me a homeopathic remedy before I left to help me work through my fears quicker so that I can relax for surgery.
So I have a really awesome holistic doctor as well as a great surgeon and a great endocrinologist. I’m backed by ladies! It’s funny that my gynecologist is a man though. I was never comfortable with that until I had to go to him because of some scheduling conflict once!
Side note: Today is my 32nd birthday! It’s been a really awesome day. The first time I didn’t plan something like an event and it’s very relaxing. Brunch. Art museum. Window shopping. Dinner. Dessert. Movie. This is my spectacular life.