Posted by: paigeturner123 | June 1, 2017

Are people still reading this?

Just wanted to check and see if this blog is still useful for those going through thyroid cancer treatment. I should have a few links to share about my cancer survivorship as of late. I’ll have bloodworm this month and hopefully be able to say that I am 8 years cancer free. Stay tuned and let me know if I should keep this blog going if you want to comment.

Posted by: paigeturner123 | September 25, 2014

5 years cancer free

I’ll write more later, but thought I should post that I got my 5 year cancer free news. It felt good, but somehow I am still tentative in feeling happy. They are watching something on my ultrasound and decided to be safe and continue with the blood test and ultrasound next year instead of taking a few years off for the ultrasound. Still, I do feel better knowing that I don’t have to go through any treatment right now and hopefully that will still be true in a year.

Posted by: paigeturner123 | December 31, 2012

2012 in review

I thought this was pretty cool. It makes me want to think about writing a new blog with mixed posts about health, healing, writing, and whatever I feel like. I do have a blogger account as well. Maybe this will be something I start in 2013. Should I start a new blog?

The stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

The new Boeing 787 Dreamliner can carry about 250 passengers. This blog was viewed about 1,300 times in 2012. If it were a Dreamliner, it would take about 5 trips to carry that many people.

Click here to see the complete report.

Posted by: paigeturner123 | February 28, 2012

Realistically Optimistic – personal essay published!

In recent news, an online journal called The Splinter Generation published my personal essay about my experience with thyroid cancer. Feel free to read it and comment on it. I had been trying to get it published for about 8 months when it finally got picked up. A week before that I had a fiction piece accepted for publication.  Hopefully, I’ll have more publications under my belt before the year is up.  My goal is to get 8 things accepted by December 2012.

Check it out here:

Posted by: paigeturner123 | February 12, 2011

Good news is always a let down.

OK, so the title of this post isn’t exactly 100% true, but with something like cancer your reaction to good news can be a bit cagey at best.

I’ve had a few weird set backs in regards to my one year follow up scan. My blood work postponed my initial scan and then I had to get another scan because my system needed to be cleaned out a bit more in order for the radiologists to feel comfortable telling me my scan was 100% negative. Yes, I had TWO scans! Ugh. By the time everything was said and done I’m sure my thyroid stimulating hormones were well above 100. I am officially hypothroid and my system is slowing waaaaay down. It is hard to eat more than a little bit of food at a time because my digestion is so slow, but I know that each day that I am back on my medication and I am able to exercise a little more, the more I will get back on track in my daily life. This whole ordeal has taught me a lesson that I keep having to relearn . . . allow for error, plan less, and prioritize.

I am learning to streamline again. I got so busy with work, socializing and other activities in my life that when I couldn’t keep up it made me feel really bad about myself. When I am in tip top shape I can do so much, but I have not been in tip top shape for awhile now. There is nothing wrong with that, or me. I’ll get back there and I have the opportunity to listen to my body and my mind tell me what is important to me. At this point I’ve reminded myself that writing and exercising are the two most important things to me and I want to really continue to do those two things in a regular way. I am able to do those things and I am going to slowly work back up to exercising 3 times a week and writing 3 times a week. I am really close to finishing my 2nd novel and I want to get it to a good revised state (the first one never really went through a 1st revision).

Be good to yourself and allow yourself to heal. That is something I have to tell myself. All this should be (in an ideal world) seen though the filter of realism, not optimism or pessimism, but realism. Really, if you find that coping is easier to do through optimism, go with that, but I’ve learned that an overly optimistic perspective can lead you into a harsh reality when your expectations are dashed!

The good news is, my scan and blood work was negative for cancer– this time!  I am happy, but there is still a lingering doubt that next time I won’t be so lucky and that, my friend, is reality.

Posted by: paigeturner123 | February 4, 2011

Roller coaster, get on board!

Updates for this past week . . .

My second round of blood work came back much higher and this is infuriating because I would have been able to get my scan today, in fact, I would be leaving to go to my scan right now if my nurse had checked my original blood work earlier. OK, but I can’t dwell on that, can I?

My new scan date (sounds, fun, right?) is Wednesday the 9th. My face is puffy and I feel weird and kind of gross. I am having manic symptoms instead of the tiredness and fatigue. It’s sort of a weird manic though. Having trouble concentrating, sleeping, and not able to really read or process things as easily. I am also, above all else, an emotional roller coaster! Granted I have had some jarring news about my scan being postponed and just overall being unsure of the outcome of that scan and also PMSing to add to all of this!

Yesterday was my worst day yet. Up until then I had been doing quite well. It just came crashing down on me and I broke down with all the loss, sadness, and self directed anger that had been building for weeks. My mom got the brunt of that and second in line was the bf. I know I need more right now. I know I’m not always this needy. I know this will pass. I also know that I need to stay present. That is the key to all of this, redirect my thinking back to the present and keep moving forward. The next time you see me, remind me of this and in turn I will remind you of the same. It kind of sounds “hokey” (no, not honkey), but if you think about it, it is so easy to get lost in thought, feeling, and things that are not happening in this moment and that’s when you step onto the roller coaster.  Once you step onto the roller coaster, it is harder to get off, but if you must get on you must also be able to get off or at least choose a small short one. Ride it for a short bit and then reroute and ride the lazy river ride into presence.

I just know this has helped me. I am feeling much better today. I allowed myself to ride the roller coaster (it was a longer one than I had realized) and then I slowed down and thought, really thought, about what was happening for me and realized that I had not been present in anything that was going on, therefore I felt out of control. Now, I am here, still out of control, but I am OK with that, and ever redirecting myself back into presence.

Posted by: paigeturner123 | February 2, 2011

Not quite there…

So there was a bit of a glich in my plans for my Whole Body Scan. The thyroid clinic nurse called me a little after 5 yesterday and wanted me to get more blood work! I was totally taken off guard. She let me know that it turns out my TSH levels were too low!!! What? I did not know this could happen. So I was standing outside of Trader Joe’s, freezing, when she kept asking me if I could make it to the lab today and I kept saying no, I was off campus at Trader Joe’s. I think she was trying to cover her ass because she was going to have to call the doctor instead and see what she wanted to do! So instead of taking my RAI pill today I took a blood test and will wait for results tomorrow. This means my scan will be postponed until next week sometime and I have to stay on this lame diet for at least 4-5 more days! It could be worse, right? I am just hoping my blood work is high enough and I can get the scan on Monday (this is all dependent on scheduling too). If not Monday, Wednesday would be the soonest I could get it done! Argh!

I will keep you posted as to what happens tomorrow. I am definitely feeling a bit hypo now. My face is puffy and I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping.

Posted by: paigeturner123 | February 1, 2011

Still on the LID

This time around being on the low iodine diet was a bit easier. With a little prodding from the bf I asked the local bakery what type of salt they use (kosher and non-iodized!) and if they used any iodate dough conditioning (no!). It has been nice to be able to eat a little bit of bread with my breakfasts and soups.

Yesterday I took a break from work and plopped in some ingredients to make tomato tortilla soup in my slow cooker. It turned out well!

I do have a strange rash on my neck and it seems to be just on the left side. At least the right side doesn’t itch, I still don’t have any feeling in my neck where they took the lymph nodes out, but maybe that’s a good thing.

Anyway, I am in the final stretch. Tomorrow I take my tiny dose of RAI for the Whole Body Scan on Friday and then I should know on Friday if I need to go in for treatment. Fingers crossed!

Posted by: paigeturner123 | January 15, 2011


Well, I made my first smoothie with my new hand blender and I really like it! It worked really well. What I did was:

1 cup of mixed berries (raspberries, blueberries, blackberries)
1 1/2 cups of cranberry juice (I used unsweetend… no sugar cranberry juice) This makes it a little tart so don’t expect something super sweet.
2 bananas
and a cup of frozen strawberries.

Mix it all up in a blender and drink it up!

My taste-tester liked it too! The tartness added a little zing to it that I enjoyed. If you want a sweeter version get cranberry juice with sugar.

Today is my day to start making various LID baked goods. I have some baked goods lined up: Chocolate cake, Peanut butter cookies and bread. Then I will make vegetable broth (for the slow cooker soups I am planning on making while I am at work!) and Vegan pesto. I am going to try and make a couple of other things on Monday as well. Not sure just yet what I will make. Possibly another slow cooker delicacy!

I’ll post recipes of the slow cooker recipes when I have a good photo to show of what it looks like!

Posted by: paigeturner123 | January 5, 2011

To simplify

So my post yesterday explained a little about how hard I find it at times to explain all this thyroid cancer stuff to people.  Things come up, like WBS (most of us thyroid cancer patients know this as whole body scans) and RAI (or radioactive iodine treatment) that we as thyroid cancer patients learn to understand… eventually.  But how do you explain all this to your co-workers in a way that isn’t giving them too much information, but sharing something with them so they will understand that you might be going through some things, feeling tired, anxious or irritable because of any number of things related to thyroid stuff! I decided to share this email with a handful of people at work so they would somewhat understand why I might be acting a bit differently in the upcoming month.

My email:

Hi there,

I just wanted to update the team on what is happening with me in the next month and a half.  As most of you know, I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer last year and underwent surgery to remove my thyroid and all of the lymph nodes  on the right side of my neck. This should have removed all of the cancer, but I still have follow-up tests that I must go through each year/month etc.  As a result of having my thyroid removed I have to take thyroid medication daily to regulate my hormones, heart, metabolism etc. To make a long story short, I will have to stop taking my medication in the middle of January and will have a whole body scan to check to see if I am cancer free.  The result of stopping my medication is a very tired, emotional, and possibly anxious me.  Please keep this in mind if you see me acting funny! The best thing for you to do is to ask me how I am doing and to try to be understanding.

(omitted the last paragraph because it talks about logistics and job duties etc. not important to this post.)

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